It's been a while...

Well, a few things have changed since I last wrote. BFF had her wedding and it was simple but awesome, Fiance and I changed our date to suit our warmer weather tastes, and I'm just sitting here feeling like a dump truck.

Let me explain. I've been off birth control for 3 months now* and obviously the pills affected my hormone levels significantly because I'm just so "bummed out" all the time. Not really all the time, but enough that Fiance notices and says it bums him out as well.

*The story behind this is - my physicians checked me over and prescribed a new monophasic birth control to keep my mood basically one level throughout the entire 28 day cycle. The pills I got were acctually a 3-month sample of BeYaz. A few weeks after being given these new pills, my physicians moved due to our town hospital being crazy. So they're now located a couple hours away. When my 3 months were running up, I called and explained the situation and asked for an official prescription. They obliged that night. I got an automated call from my pharmacy saying something about my insurance needing to be contacted.... I went to the pharmacy, asked what was up, and the lady told me my insurance didn't cover BeYaz so they had faxed this information to my doctors along with a request to prescribe the generic version of this pill to me. They hadn't heard anything, so the lady told me I might need to call my doctor on my own. It was mildly annoying, but I did. That was 3 months ago. I've called at least 30 times trying to get this damned birth control prescribed to me, explaining all this over and over to the nurses. The most recent time, I decided to ask for the actual pill name of the generic version of BeYaz and you know what I found out? There isn't one. There f***ing isn't a generic version! All this time I've been calling and explaining, the nurses have taken my name, number and request down in writing, no one bothered to call me back saying this doesn't exist! No one! So I'm very pissed because I used up my one OBGYN visit a year on these losers who are treating me, still their patient, like crap. My insurance will allow me to see a doctor more than once, or see more than one doctor, but I have to front the money - which I don't have.

So a lot has been bringing me down. My lack of pills, the reason behind it, Fiance acting like his bad mood is my fault (I don't buy that), lack of money, and I think my cat, Midnight, is sick because she is pooping on the [carpeted] stairs and outside the litter boxes when she does go down stairs. Another thing I need to take care of, but I don't have the money for it. Yay...

I'm reserving some money for her, though. This month I'm going to call this other vet who is closer to where Fiance and I live. I heard he does payment plans for vet visits, so that would help a lot. I just need to see what's wrong with my baby girl... She's been losing weight and I thought it was due to the diet changes and her getting stairs to run up and down on, but maybe it's not like that.

She's always had issues pooping outside of the litter boxes, but it's always been like right outside. My mom told me that she remembers Midnight pooping on stairs just a couple times when she was younger, though. Now she's doing it every week on the stairs and rarely poops in the litter box, even though she'll pee in there with no hesitation. So I feel like she's trying to tell me something is wrong.

I've been feeding both cats Purina Indoor Advantage every day, twice a day. And I feed them 1/4 can each of Purina wet cat food sparingly. At least 1 time a week, sometimes 2. I noticed that the beefy flavors of wet food make Midnight poop something awful. :S The chicken seems to be okay, as well as the salmon flavors. But I don't know. Hopefully I can get her in to see a vet and he/she can tell me what's wrong with her.