I'm just so frustrated with my [working] life that it's literally making me depressed. I'm trying so hard to have a good attitude about things and with people, but it's like every time I have to smile to avoid "What's wrong?" it makes me even sadder.
I hate working 2 jobs for 7 days a week. I hate that I can't spend any normal time with my family and friends. I hate that I can't go on dates with my boyfriend because mornings don't feel like dates and I work every night. I hate that I'm always tired and cranky and that everything is a mess. I hate that I can't make time between sleep and work to get an oil change/have someone look at my a/c in my car.
And what I hate most of all is that I'm stuck in this position until 1 of 2 things happens. 1) Boyfriend proposes, we move in together, I quit CK or 2) I get my credit cards paid off and I can quit CK. I don't know how long either thing will take, and that makes me sad as well. Even paying off my credit cards will take over a year. And I just don't have any idea when my boyfriend will propose...
UGH!
Monday, May 28, 2012
Monday, May 21, 2012
Today's Just Another Day
What I did today:
I am trying to not eat cereal everyday because it's so loaded with sugar that once my body processes it, I get hungry again. Today I had a PB and banana sandwich and I still feel fine.
Also, I've noticed that I drink A LOT. It probably wasn't the soda being addicting to me, just that I like to drink. It's something to do vs. eating. With water, it's still obviously better for me, but I went through a 28 pack (I think) in a week. That's not including the weekends at CPH where I bring my own water bottle and fill it up 6-7 times a night. It's not small, either.
- took a nap from 7am-11:30am
- woke up
- ate
- got dressed/ready
- washed the rest of my dishes
- 45% water change in the big tank
I am trying to not eat cereal everyday because it's so loaded with sugar that once my body processes it, I get hungry again. Today I had a PB and banana sandwich and I still feel fine.
Also, I've noticed that I drink A LOT. It probably wasn't the soda being addicting to me, just that I like to drink. It's something to do vs. eating. With water, it's still obviously better for me, but I went through a 28 pack (I think) in a week. That's not including the weekends at CPH where I bring my own water bottle and fill it up 6-7 times a night. It's not small, either.
Old doesn't equal Right.
I hate this one woman's logic on how CPH works!
It isn't a nursing home, it's mostly independent living plus 1 staff person at all times. So, like a nursing home, we have a notebook that we have to record EVERYTHING the ladies do. Well, when they leave/come back or if someone is here for them or if someone is here for the home's maintenance.
The woman's logic is that, if a lady leaves the home without telling someone, and say that lady doesn't eat meals at the home, that it doesn't matter if you write down that she is gone or not.
My logic is like this: We have this notebook specifically to record the ladies' activities throughout the day. If someone leaves and doesn't tell you, you need to remind them about why we need to know. I don't care if she doesn't eat meals with us, I still need to know to EXPECT her home so that if something dreadful happened and she didn't come home and didn't call, I would know to take other action. If I don't know that she's gone, and she never comes home, I don't know if anything's wrong. And then, it's this woman's fault for not letting me know in the first place and that's on her.
It's like talking to a brick wall when I try to explain to the woman why I need to know, but of course she's stubborn and old and thinks that she's always right about everything and that she knows best. Just because I'm young doesn't mean I'm stupid - I have reasons for why I feel the way I feel and why I think the way I think. Plus it's a rule anyway, why are YOU so privileged to break it?
It isn't a nursing home, it's mostly independent living plus 1 staff person at all times. So, like a nursing home, we have a notebook that we have to record EVERYTHING the ladies do. Well, when they leave/come back or if someone is here for them or if someone is here for the home's maintenance.
The woman's logic is that, if a lady leaves the home without telling someone, and say that lady doesn't eat meals at the home, that it doesn't matter if you write down that she is gone or not.
My logic is like this: We have this notebook specifically to record the ladies' activities throughout the day. If someone leaves and doesn't tell you, you need to remind them about why we need to know. I don't care if she doesn't eat meals with us, I still need to know to EXPECT her home so that if something dreadful happened and she didn't come home and didn't call, I would know to take other action. If I don't know that she's gone, and she never comes home, I don't know if anything's wrong. And then, it's this woman's fault for not letting me know in the first place and that's on her.
It's like talking to a brick wall when I try to explain to the woman why I need to know, but of course she's stubborn and old and thinks that she's always right about everything and that she knows best. Just because I'm young doesn't mean I'm stupid - I have reasons for why I feel the way I feel and why I think the way I think. Plus it's a rule anyway, why are YOU so privileged to break it?
Can't I just sleep forever?!
It's a love-hate relationship when we talk about me getting to sleep at my job.
It's love:
-I am allowed to sleep.
It's hate:
-I don't sleep because I'm worried always for the ladies.
Now, it's a good thing to be worried about them because I feel like I worry which keeps them safe. But it really sucks when I end up getting maybe 2-3 hours of sleep and then having to be awake in the morning for the morning cook.
I just wish there was a way I could sleep forever. Alas, I work too much and this dream isn't yet possible.
It's love:
-I am allowed to sleep.
It's hate:
-I don't sleep because I'm worried always for the ladies.
Now, it's a good thing to be worried about them because I feel like I worry which keeps them safe. But it really sucks when I end up getting maybe 2-3 hours of sleep and then having to be awake in the morning for the morning cook.
I just wish there was a way I could sleep forever. Alas, I work too much and this dream isn't yet possible.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Rant: Getting Hired
So, you work at a job for a little bit and you either are already really good at it, or you become really good at it. Either way, someone approaches you and offers you an application to be hired at another level. You've only been there for a few months. People get mad - well, the people who have been working there way longer than you get mad. This is where it bothers me.
It's not MY fault that I work harder, do better, or get along with people better than you. I didn't go behind your back saying bad things about you in order to get this job. I didn't do anything other than work hard and do a good job, show up on time everyday, and try to grin and bear working with people I dislike. A lot. It's not MY fault that, for however many years, you didn't work hard, or show up every day/on time, or that you don't get along with people. I just met you - I'm sorry you have to deal with being a bitch all the time, but it's not my fault.
Maybe if you worked a little harder and showed a little extra effort, maybe people would want to hire you. Maybe if you got along with people who you have no choice in working with, maybe they'd want to hire you. Maybe if you shut up long enough to do your job EFFICIENTLY, maybe they'd want to hire you.
I'm sorry, but it seems like you think that you're better than me, better than the other employees, and better than the management the way you talk yourself up. You're not hot shit, you must have embellished a LOTtle bit. You look like everyone else here - no better. I get that if you can't show up to work for a family thing, it's not your fault. But maybe don't have such an attitude about it when you get back to work. Maybe try NOT talking about the bosses behind their backs when they will hear about it from that same person, and you know they will.
It's like some people just assume they're entitled to certain things because of [insert reason here]. Unless you are a prince/princess, you are entitled to nothing unless you work for it on your own. People have to work, you have to work, you are the same as other people in this situation.
Ugh.
It's not MY fault that I work harder, do better, or get along with people better than you. I didn't go behind your back saying bad things about you in order to get this job. I didn't do anything other than work hard and do a good job, show up on time everyday, and try to grin and bear working with people I dislike. A lot. It's not MY fault that, for however many years, you didn't work hard, or show up every day/on time, or that you don't get along with people. I just met you - I'm sorry you have to deal with being a bitch all the time, but it's not my fault.
Maybe if you worked a little harder and showed a little extra effort, maybe people would want to hire you. Maybe if you got along with people who you have no choice in working with, maybe they'd want to hire you. Maybe if you shut up long enough to do your job EFFICIENTLY, maybe they'd want to hire you.
I'm sorry, but it seems like you think that you're better than me, better than the other employees, and better than the management the way you talk yourself up. You're not hot shit, you must have embellished a LOTtle bit. You look like everyone else here - no better. I get that if you can't show up to work for a family thing, it's not your fault. But maybe don't have such an attitude about it when you get back to work. Maybe try NOT talking about the bosses behind their backs when they will hear about it from that same person, and you know they will.
It's like some people just assume they're entitled to certain things because of [insert reason here]. Unless you are a prince/princess, you are entitled to nothing unless you work for it on your own. People have to work, you have to work, you are the same as other people in this situation.
Ugh.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Organizing FIEND!
Usually the weekends are when I sleep until 12pm because, well, I can. But today my cat woke me up at 11 wondering why I was still sleeping and then my mom texted me at 11:15 so I bit the bullet and got up. I wasn't really able to fall back asleep anyway, so what could it hurt?
I got up, had breakfast for lunch, and decided I was just going to spend the extra time I had finishing my dishes that needed to be washed. See, I tried creating Tidy Tuesday, but it didn't go over so well. Anywho, I did most of the dishes (I have a few pots and a pan left over plus a few glasses) and decided to sweep my floor. My cats get litter EVERY.WHERE. so I did that. Then I decided to mop and after that was all done, I still had enough time to sit outside (in 90 degree weather) and plant my calla lilies.
Tomorrow, I'm going to church with my mom because she is singing and asked me to come. So I'll be awake, and I feel like, after we have lunch, I could still have enough time to start getting my porch organized. I'm hosting my first party - my grandma's birthday party - and that is where I have room to seat everyone.
So I am providing the cake and ice cream, plus the place, and I was thinking it'd be nice to just have some happy birthday plates and napkins plus some disposable forks/spoons. I really hate dishes. I also thought, because my brother doesn't really like cake and my boyfriend is on his P90X diet, that maybe I could make a little healthy snack, like a fruit bowl plus some extra frosting for dipping and some graham crackers as well. My family has this thing about making sandwich cookies out of graham crackers and frosting. I wanted to decorate the porch with a light bulb garland and put little flowers inside... But I have no little flowers :( OOH It might be cool to use those make-your-own-ornament bulbs and put some marbles in them. That'd be pretty! The only thing I need now is that double fan to pull the a/c to the porch.
I got up, had breakfast for lunch, and decided I was just going to spend the extra time I had finishing my dishes that needed to be washed. See, I tried creating Tidy Tuesday, but it didn't go over so well. Anywho, I did most of the dishes (I have a few pots and a pan left over plus a few glasses) and decided to sweep my floor. My cats get litter EVERY.WHERE. so I did that. Then I decided to mop and after that was all done, I still had enough time to sit outside (in 90 degree weather) and plant my calla lilies.
Tomorrow, I'm going to church with my mom because she is singing and asked me to come. So I'll be awake, and I feel like, after we have lunch, I could still have enough time to start getting my porch organized. I'm hosting my first party - my grandma's birthday party - and that is where I have room to seat everyone.
So I am providing the cake and ice cream, plus the place, and I was thinking it'd be nice to just have some happy birthday plates and napkins plus some disposable forks/spoons. I really hate dishes. I also thought, because my brother doesn't really like cake and my boyfriend is on his P90X diet, that maybe I could make a little healthy snack, like a fruit bowl plus some extra frosting for dipping and some graham crackers as well. My family has this thing about making sandwich cookies out of graham crackers and frosting. I wanted to decorate the porch with a light bulb garland and put little flowers inside... But I have no little flowers :( OOH It might be cool to use those make-your-own-ornament bulbs and put some marbles in them. That'd be pretty! The only thing I need now is that double fan to pull the a/c to the porch.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
I'm Just Tired
I feel like, when I don't eat enough vegetables and I eat too many sweets, it hurts. Like, I am (probably) able to just full-on pass out right now in a bed. I ate way too much today in general, but I didn't have a lot of vegetables today. I also know that I didn't really get a nap in before it was time to go to Red Lobster - maybe 30 minutes - so obviously that may be a factor as well.
I woke up at 5am because I had to pee. I went back to bed and the alarm went off at 6:15am so I could be up to let the other lady in at 7am. I went home, wasn't tired, so I put on Food Network and watched almost a full hour of TV before I tried to sleep at 8:45am. Then, I spent at least 20 minutes trying to get comfortable [9:05am] and my alarm went off at 9:30am and again at 9:45am.
It's strange to me that when I have a dream and then my alarm goes off, I feel so much more tired than if I wasn't really dreaming and the alarm goes off. I know you dream in REM sleep, but I hate how sleepy I am afterwards!
I woke up at 5am because I had to pee. I went back to bed and the alarm went off at 6:15am so I could be up to let the other lady in at 7am. I went home, wasn't tired, so I put on Food Network and watched almost a full hour of TV before I tried to sleep at 8:45am. Then, I spent at least 20 minutes trying to get comfortable [9:05am] and my alarm went off at 9:30am and again at 9:45am.
It's strange to me that when I have a dream and then my alarm goes off, I feel so much more tired than if I wasn't really dreaming and the alarm goes off. I know you dream in REM sleep, but I hate how sleepy I am afterwards!
I Miss Everything!
Since I've been working 7 days a week for the last 3.5 months, I miss out on everything and it really sucks. My only saving grace is that I still get to see my boyfriend but those times have been diminished as well.
I can't see my family. I mean, I see them, but I can't just go and visit. They have to come to me because with all the things I need to get done at my home, I can't take the time away and drive a few minutes to visit.
I can't see my best friend. I haven't seen her since last month on her daughter's birthday party! We used to have a routine down where I would get to see her every week and see her daughter grow up. Now I feel like a total outsider. I haven't had a call or text from her in that long as well...
I have no time to exercise. Well, truth is I do, but it's that or sleep. When you're me, sleep wins over everything - I'm not even sorry about it. I liked to have 4 days off where I could just go outside on a walk... With my best friend...
All I do is work. I hate it. I wish that I could just quit CK. I really do. Nobody there is worth staying for.
My grandma said something to me today that freaked me out, though. I was telling her about how CK wanted to hire me and she said that I could quit CPH, and I told her that I couldn't because CK doesn't give me enough money to even survive on. She then said to me that I don't know if [CPH] is going to always be there. So I'm not sure what to make of that. I don't think I've done anything wrong that would entitle her to fire me, and I love the ladies and they love me - she tells me that all the time. So I just don't know what that means and if I should shluff it off or if I need to be worried about it.
Meh. I want a nap.
I can't see my family. I mean, I see them, but I can't just go and visit. They have to come to me because with all the things I need to get done at my home, I can't take the time away and drive a few minutes to visit.
I can't see my best friend. I haven't seen her since last month on her daughter's birthday party! We used to have a routine down where I would get to see her every week and see her daughter grow up. Now I feel like a total outsider. I haven't had a call or text from her in that long as well...
I have no time to exercise. Well, truth is I do, but it's that or sleep. When you're me, sleep wins over everything - I'm not even sorry about it. I liked to have 4 days off where I could just go outside on a walk... With my best friend...
All I do is work. I hate it. I wish that I could just quit CK. I really do. Nobody there is worth staying for.
My grandma said something to me today that freaked me out, though. I was telling her about how CK wanted to hire me and she said that I could quit CPH, and I told her that I couldn't because CK doesn't give me enough money to even survive on. She then said to me that I don't know if [CPH] is going to always be there. So I'm not sure what to make of that. I don't think I've done anything wrong that would entitle her to fire me, and I love the ladies and they love me - she tells me that all the time. So I just don't know what that means and if I should shluff it off or if I need to be worried about it.
Meh. I want a nap.
Saturday, May 12, 2012
It's Weird..
Getting paid every week is weird to me. Especially now since I have automatic pay. I'm so tired, I can't even think of what that's called. Anyway, they automatically deposit -- direct deposit -- the money I made into my account so I don't even have to pick anything up. I am still so used to getting paid every month, than when I see $116 in my account from yesterday that was deposited, I'm like - what?! But then I see where the money came from and I'm like, Oh. Okay.
Tomorrow's Mother's Day. My brother and I are taking our mom and grandma out to Red Lobster for lunch. Since I have to work nights, we have to do things like old people.. Sorry, Grandma. I'm happy that I can afford something like this, though. I probably won't be able to afford it for her birthday, but that's because I have a super expensive gift in mind. And it's something she'll be able to use and enjoy for years to come, so it'll be worth the money.
I also think it's weird that people can just flip a switch on their stand-points when their parents/spouses/significant others get involved. I know a few people like that, and it's annoying but mostly weird. Like, how can you be so passionate about one solution or answer to a problem, but the minute your whoever gets involved or it's happening to you, you take the entirely opposite approach?! No sense is made.
Tomorrow's Mother's Day. My brother and I are taking our mom and grandma out to Red Lobster for lunch. Since I have to work nights, we have to do things like old people.. Sorry, Grandma. I'm happy that I can afford something like this, though. I probably won't be able to afford it for her birthday, but that's because I have a super expensive gift in mind. And it's something she'll be able to use and enjoy for years to come, so it'll be worth the money.
I also think it's weird that people can just flip a switch on their stand-points when their parents/spouses/significant others get involved. I know a few people like that, and it's annoying but mostly weird. Like, how can you be so passionate about one solution or answer to a problem, but the minute your whoever gets involved or it's happening to you, you take the entirely opposite approach?! No sense is made.
Quilted Skirt
I love the quilting fabrics that come in little pre-cut squares at my local Wal*Mart. I think it's a fun mix of fabrics and I love the trend or mixing patterns in clothing. So I thought it'd be an amazing idea to make myself a "quilted" skirt! I don't know how much of the fabric squares I'll need, but I want to try it out. I think it would be adorable and a very unique clothing item to have.
First, I'll need to make a pattern. I will keep you updated. :)
First, I'll need to make a pattern. I will keep you updated. :)
Vegetable Diaries: Day 5
Vegetable Diaries is my new title for anything I write pertaining to Vegetarianism.
So it's Day 5 of both being a Veggie and not drinking soda. Holy. Cow. My body has been so bloated from soda and I didn't even realize it! I haven't lost any weight (so far) but I've also been on my period so that didn't help anything, haha. But the soda crash -- oh man, if you have a choice to start drinking soda or are just thinking about quitting, quit now! The crash is HORRIBLE! I mean, physically I feel great. I have less bloating (especially around my midsection) and I'm regaining my natural energy that I had replaced with the sugars in the soda... But the crash has made me SO tired. I mean, I'm a little different in the sense that I'm severely anemic so that's already making me more tired than the average person, but add the sugar crash and I'm a zombie.
Last night I made my very own shepherds pie. Now, let me just say that I've never had a normal shepherds pie, but it always sounded good to me. I used my mandolin and sliced 2 potatoes* very thin and lined the bottom of a dish. I added cauliflower, peas and corn and poured some cheese soup (in a can) over top. I did mix the soup with milk to make it easier to evenly distribute. Then I mashed up 4 potatoes, skins and all, with about 3 TBS. of butter and about 1/3-1/2 cup of milk and some parmesan cheese. Chunky, but creamy. I put that on top of the vegetables and added about 1/3 cup of italian breadcrumbs and more parmesan cheese and baked it a total of 75 minutes at 350 F. It's freaking delicious, even with the mishaps*.
*I think next time, I'm going to boil the potatoes even before slicing so they will cook enough in the oven. I had to cook the dish 3 separate times. Yikes!
I'm proud that my first cooking session was so inspiring! My boyfriend loved it! And I didn't even have a recipe! Yay me! :)
Intake:
Morning - N/A (slept)
Afternoon - Cereal + milk; 1 bottle of water
Night - Vegetarian Shepherds Pie + berries + applesauce; 3 bottles of water
Changes:
- Little to no issues with constipation.
- De-bloating.
- Better energy.
So it's Day 5 of both being a Veggie and not drinking soda. Holy. Cow. My body has been so bloated from soda and I didn't even realize it! I haven't lost any weight (so far) but I've also been on my period so that didn't help anything, haha. But the soda crash -- oh man, if you have a choice to start drinking soda or are just thinking about quitting, quit now! The crash is HORRIBLE! I mean, physically I feel great. I have less bloating (especially around my midsection) and I'm regaining my natural energy that I had replaced with the sugars in the soda... But the crash has made me SO tired. I mean, I'm a little different in the sense that I'm severely anemic so that's already making me more tired than the average person, but add the sugar crash and I'm a zombie.
Last night I made my very own shepherds pie. Now, let me just say that I've never had a normal shepherds pie, but it always sounded good to me. I used my mandolin and sliced 2 potatoes* very thin and lined the bottom of a dish. I added cauliflower, peas and corn and poured some cheese soup (in a can) over top. I did mix the soup with milk to make it easier to evenly distribute. Then I mashed up 4 potatoes, skins and all, with about 3 TBS. of butter and about 1/3-1/2 cup of milk and some parmesan cheese. Chunky, but creamy. I put that on top of the vegetables and added about 1/3 cup of italian breadcrumbs and more parmesan cheese and baked it a total of 75 minutes at 350 F. It's freaking delicious, even with the mishaps*.
*I think next time, I'm going to boil the potatoes even before slicing so they will cook enough in the oven. I had to cook the dish 3 separate times. Yikes!
I'm proud that my first cooking session was so inspiring! My boyfriend loved it! And I didn't even have a recipe! Yay me! :)
Intake:
Morning - N/A (slept)
Afternoon - Cereal + milk; 1 bottle of water
Night - Vegetarian Shepherds Pie + berries + applesauce; 3 bottles of water
Changes:
- Little to no issues with constipation.
- De-bloating.
- Better energy.
Monday, May 7, 2012
Vegetable Diaries: Day 1 "Official"
So, yesterday I stuck to vegetarian-esque meals. I was proud. But today is the first full day of being an out-of-the-closet vegetarian. So I call today Day 1. I didn't have any soda today, either, and I think it's going to work out alright after all. I was scared about the amount of soda I had been consuming and then just cutting myself off completely, but actually I feel fine. I have a tiny headache, but if that's all that will happen, I'll take it!
Intake:
I had my mix of orange juice and pineapple juice in the morning. To eat, I had 2 chocolate chocolate chip pancakes and syrup plus a large banana. I drank 2 full bottles of water before I came to work. When I got here, I was left a serving of rhubarb crisp and a serving of tomato salad, so I had both of those. Dinner for the ladies is chicken patties, potato salad, fruit salad and fruit for their sides. I'll be nixing the chicken and replacing it with a bit more (hopefully there's still some left) potato salad and fruit salad and a peanut butter 1/2 sandwich plus my side fruit.
All together that brings my calorie intake to 1298 which ends up being 48 calories over, but oh well. It'll still be less than what I consumed yesterday so my weight should go back down regardless.
Intake:
I had my mix of orange juice and pineapple juice in the morning. To eat, I had 2 chocolate chocolate chip pancakes and syrup plus a large banana. I drank 2 full bottles of water before I came to work. When I got here, I was left a serving of rhubarb crisp and a serving of tomato salad, so I had both of those. Dinner for the ladies is chicken patties, potato salad, fruit salad and fruit for their sides. I'll be nixing the chicken and replacing it with a bit more (hopefully there's still some left) potato salad and fruit salad and a peanut butter 1/2 sandwich plus my side fruit.
All together that brings my calorie intake to 1298 which ends up being 48 calories over, but oh well. It'll still be less than what I consumed yesterday so my weight should go back down regardless.
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Cheers to the newest veg-head! ;)
What's a vegetarian?
A vegetarian is someone who eats a lot of vegetables and generally, when you think of a vegetarian, you think someone who doesn't eat any meat. But in doing my research, there are a couple different types of vegetarians.
So, my vegetarian ways aren't that hard to live by. I guess in this list I'm in the middle as far as difficulty is concerned. If you want to look at it that way. Not completely vegan, but not just avoiding red meats.
I have a plan that involves meal plans and plastic containers and make-ahead-meals. My boyfriend isn't that into it, and he seems concerned about my protein intake, but everyone else is seemingly supportive. I'm looking at this change as a temporary experiment. I'm not ready to make this a life style [forever] change, because I don't know how it'll affect my body. If everything goes well, then it'll be fine for me to continue this vegetarian lifestyle into my future years of life.
Why are you becoming a vegetarian?
I don't really have a great answer for that. Since I've been about 19, I haven't ever craved meat. I'll eat it, but I get more excited over pastas and cheesy potatoes. Plus, I love veggies. Plus, I depleted my energy storage with diet sodas (also something I'm omitting from my life) so veggies will give me a natural boost of energy that will keep my body in check and healthy at the same time. I'm, of course, against animal cruelty, but I'm not against people eating meat. People can always do what they want in my eyes, so why can't I do what I want, ya know?
How is this going to affect your life?
Honestly, I don't think it will affect me too much; good or bad. I have been eating like a vegetarian for a few years since I've been on my own, and my body craves veggies and fruits. Aside from the amount of money I spend on fresh fruits and veggies raising a little, I don't think I'll be too affected life-wise.
Health-wise, I hope it will affect me! Haha, what I mean is, I hope it will help me reach a good (maybe lower?!) weight that I can maintain. I hope I can regain the energy to do things that come easily to other people. I hope it [helps] combats my anemia. I hope I feel better inside; no constipation, no cramps in abnormal places at abnormal times, no sugar crashes, etc. I hope that I look better outside; better complexion, better hair, stronger nails, etc.
Most of all, I hope my friends and family will support me in this journey. I'm not asking anyone to change their lives for my new needs. I'm not asking anyone to come with me on this journey - be it short or a life time. I've made a sane, conscience decision to change the way I eat in a healthier way.
A vegetarian is someone who eats a lot of vegetables and generally, when you think of a vegetarian, you think someone who doesn't eat any meat. But in doing my research, there are a couple different types of vegetarians.
- semi-vegetarian: eats meat, but only fish and chicken.
- pesci-vegetarian: eats only fish.
- lacto-ovo vegetarian: eats no meat, but will eat dairy products (milk, butter, cheese) and eggs.
- ovo-vegetarian: eats eggs, but no meat or dairy products.
- vegan: eats no meat or animal products.
So, my vegetarian ways aren't that hard to live by. I guess in this list I'm in the middle as far as difficulty is concerned. If you want to look at it that way. Not completely vegan, but not just avoiding red meats.
I have a plan that involves meal plans and plastic containers and make-ahead-meals. My boyfriend isn't that into it, and he seems concerned about my protein intake, but everyone else is seemingly supportive. I'm looking at this change as a temporary experiment. I'm not ready to make this a life style [forever] change, because I don't know how it'll affect my body. If everything goes well, then it'll be fine for me to continue this vegetarian lifestyle into my future years of life.
Why are you becoming a vegetarian?
I don't really have a great answer for that. Since I've been about 19, I haven't ever craved meat. I'll eat it, but I get more excited over pastas and cheesy potatoes. Plus, I love veggies. Plus, I depleted my energy storage with diet sodas (also something I'm omitting from my life) so veggies will give me a natural boost of energy that will keep my body in check and healthy at the same time. I'm, of course, against animal cruelty, but I'm not against people eating meat. People can always do what they want in my eyes, so why can't I do what I want, ya know?
How is this going to affect your life?
Honestly, I don't think it will affect me too much; good or bad. I have been eating like a vegetarian for a few years since I've been on my own, and my body craves veggies and fruits. Aside from the amount of money I spend on fresh fruits and veggies raising a little, I don't think I'll be too affected life-wise.
Health-wise, I hope it will affect me! Haha, what I mean is, I hope it will help me reach a good (maybe lower?!) weight that I can maintain. I hope I can regain the energy to do things that come easily to other people. I hope it [helps] combats my anemia. I hope I feel better inside; no constipation, no cramps in abnormal places at abnormal times, no sugar crashes, etc. I hope that I look better outside; better complexion, better hair, stronger nails, etc.
Most of all, I hope my friends and family will support me in this journey. I'm not asking anyone to change their lives for my new needs. I'm not asking anyone to come with me on this journey - be it short or a life time. I've made a sane, conscience decision to change the way I eat in a healthier way.
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Organizing my Life
I can't get my ass in gear to workout. So I thought I'd try another approach.
I've talked before about basically living like a vegetarian when I'm left to fend/cook for myself. That still is true. But I've also discovered that when I eat meat, I am left feeling less satisfied and get hungry again sooner than if I had eaten a vegetarian meal.
So I'm thinking that it's time to make the conversion from semi-carnivore to omnivore (that also eats eggs, cheese and yogurt and drinks milk). That's the difference between being a vegetarian and vegan; vegans are STRICTLY plants/seeds/grains/whole foods + no meat/eggs/dairy. I am not ready for that and I might never be ready for that. But I am ready to try the vegetarian chapter in my life.
So I'm going to be searching for fabulous vegetarian recipes on the web and, starting Tuesday, I'm going to be preparing and eating them. Tuesday I will be able to go shopping for groceries. Monday I plan on purging my freezer of meats and I am also going to not buy any more soda.
It's probably a bad idea to start two new things at once; cutting soda and meat out of my diet; but it's all necessary. Soda is bad for you period. But diet soda is potentially worse. It has too many sugars that end up making you hungry as well and you get the whole crash thing going on after you drink one. Plus, I've been on bingers lately where I buy a 24 pack of soda Tuesday and (this week) there are 3 cans left on Saturday. That's bad. I need to quit cold turkey. And I'm not against water - I just like soda better. But it's a health change.Maybe once my energy levels rise due to a good diet and no soda, I'll be ready to start working out full time.
And I've created "Tidy Tuesday" as in, no matter what needs to be done, I'm cleaning my apartment every Tuesday. That includes dishes, vacuuming, sweeping, dusting & laundry. I was thinking about "Workout Wednesday" but I need to work out more than once a week. Although, it might be a good starting pace.
This Friday is a sale at Goodwill where all their clothes are $1.23 a piece and I need some clothes. So before Friday, I need to go through my clothes and see what I need to get rid of and what I want to keep. Honestly, I usually just go through the same clothes every week. I hardly open my closet or dresser. I can't get rid of too much, because some things in there are strictly seasonal and 4/7 days a week I have a dress code. Hopefully that's not for too long, though, and $1.23 is way better than a single piece for $15.
I've talked before about basically living like a vegetarian when I'm left to fend/cook for myself. That still is true. But I've also discovered that when I eat meat, I am left feeling less satisfied and get hungry again sooner than if I had eaten a vegetarian meal.
So I'm thinking that it's time to make the conversion from semi-carnivore to omnivore (that also eats eggs, cheese and yogurt and drinks milk). That's the difference between being a vegetarian and vegan; vegans are STRICTLY plants/seeds/grains/whole foods + no meat/eggs/dairy. I am not ready for that and I might never be ready for that. But I am ready to try the vegetarian chapter in my life.
So I'm going to be searching for fabulous vegetarian recipes on the web and, starting Tuesday, I'm going to be preparing and eating them. Tuesday I will be able to go shopping for groceries. Monday I plan on purging my freezer of meats and I am also going to not buy any more soda.
It's probably a bad idea to start two new things at once; cutting soda and meat out of my diet; but it's all necessary. Soda is bad for you period. But diet soda is potentially worse. It has too many sugars that end up making you hungry as well and you get the whole crash thing going on after you drink one. Plus, I've been on bingers lately where I buy a 24 pack of soda Tuesday and (this week) there are 3 cans left on Saturday. That's bad. I need to quit cold turkey. And I'm not against water - I just like soda better. But it's a health change.Maybe once my energy levels rise due to a good diet and no soda, I'll be ready to start working out full time.
And I've created "Tidy Tuesday" as in, no matter what needs to be done, I'm cleaning my apartment every Tuesday. That includes dishes, vacuuming, sweeping, dusting & laundry. I was thinking about "Workout Wednesday" but I need to work out more than once a week. Although, it might be a good starting pace.
This Friday is a sale at Goodwill where all their clothes are $1.23 a piece and I need some clothes. So before Friday, I need to go through my clothes and see what I need to get rid of and what I want to keep. Honestly, I usually just go through the same clothes every week. I hardly open my closet or dresser. I can't get rid of too much, because some things in there are strictly seasonal and 4/7 days a week I have a dress code. Hopefully that's not for too long, though, and $1.23 is way better than a single piece for $15.
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