I'm just so frustrated with my [working] life that it's literally making me depressed. I'm trying so hard to have a good attitude about things and with people, but it's like every time I have to smile to avoid "What's wrong?" it makes me even sadder.
I hate working 2 jobs for 7 days a week. I hate that I can't spend any normal time with my family and friends. I hate that I can't go on dates with my boyfriend because mornings don't feel like dates and I work every night. I hate that I'm always tired and cranky and that everything is a mess. I hate that I can't make time between sleep and work to get an oil change/have someone look at my a/c in my car.
And what I hate most of all is that I'm stuck in this position until 1 of 2 things happens. 1) Boyfriend proposes, we move in together, I quit CK or 2) I get my credit cards paid off and I can quit CK. I don't know how long either thing will take, and that makes me sad as well. Even paying off my credit cards will take over a year. And I just don't have any idea when my boyfriend will propose...
UGH!
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