BFF

Well my best friend is having a wedding next year and she asked me to stand next to her as a bridesmaid and made this other friend of hers the maid of honor. Honestly it hurts. I mean I know this other friend would probably be a little nightmarish if she wasn't, but it bothers me when people make decisions based on how people might react.

Realistically I've been there for my BFF since we were 5. I've made mistakes as has she, but we are both 23 now and still best friends. This other girl came later and hasn't always been a nice person let alone a friend to her.

Ultimately I know its her wedding and she can do what she wants. And I'm honored to be a part of the wedding and one of her main people But it does hurt.

EDIT: Now that I've had time to sleep and think about this whole thing, I'm still hurt by her decision.  But it's not like a selfish reason, like, "Oh, I'm not the maid of honor and I should be" but it's more, "Am I not the person/friend I thought I was to you?" I mean when you call me your sister, I know it's not real serious, but it kind of makes me feel like a big deal to you. Am I not really that big of a deal?

I'm not going to bag on this other friend, but BFF knows what the other friend has put her through. Just because I didn't put her through all that, and just because I'm a non-conflict type of person doesn't mean this decision doesn't hurt me. I'm left wondering what I did wrong...